8: I haven't had this bad of a day since I first started treatment last winter. I was on the verge of a panic attack, severely lacking in sleep and extremely discouraged. I was able to talk with my dad though and he encouraged me to do something with my other gifts instead of lament that I cannot run right now. So I texted a good friend a message about my gratitude and thankfulness for her. I still felt like I was falling apart by the time my head hit the pillow, but my heart was more at ease that I at least made it through the day.
9: Unfortunately, stress took over and I didn't go out of my way to help anyone. Bad Hannah! :(
10: God put something right in front of me that I could do for someone else. It just happened to be extremely undesirable. It was a great chance to get my heart focused in the right place, but I struggled with not being bitter about it afterwards.
11: I had a similar opportunity to yesterdays', only today: I totally blew it. I got mad about it and voiced my disgust that I had to do said "chore" in the first place.....not a good representation of Christ. Thankfully, I was able to make things right after the fact.
12: Today was another "cheat" day, where my act of kindness was a prearranged gathering. However, it was still really neat to do and I enjoyed finding something that someone else would particularly like.
13: Sunday was hard. I figured it would be easier after the pastor's sermon recapping our series in Romans; the message really resonated with me. But, I found myself late into the evening without any deliberate act of kindness. So, I chose to use the digital world for my kindness of the day. My heart wasn't in it though. I think I kind of expected to get kindness back, and that was my main motivation. I'm glad God showed me that, though. Definitely something I need to work on.
14: This was a hard day for me. A really hard day. I tried to encourage other people, because that's my go-to when I feel extremely discouraged. But it was a short trip to a record store, Christmas shopping with friends that cheered me up. My friends were there when I received some really bad news, and I was amazed at the love and support they gave. I felt so grateful for that kindness. So, perhaps today was a receiving day...I'm learning that those are really necessary as well. :)
If you're new to my blog or this particular series, check out Part 1, HERE. Stay tuned for next week's post. Merry Christmas!