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One of the most frustrating things about anorexia recovery is the facade I seem to have adopted. It's exciting to me that my body is nearly at a healthy place again. It's also frustrating because the rest of the world sees normal. It sees a healthy me. It sees "ok." What the world doesn't see is the inside. That's where the wheels are turning and the battles are raging, day in and day out. On behalf of the eating disorder community: Don't assume that things are ok just because the body looks better. I don't say that to set off alarms. I am, for a fact, doing really great. (RELATED: Am I Beautiful?)
If you read yesterday's post though, you'd know that the DSM-5 has now officially recognized illnesses such as atypical anorexia, where the individual's body weight is still within a healthy range but they have lost a very unhealthy amount of weight through restricting. That goes to show the outside is not always a clear indicator of emotional or mental health. We need to get to know each other, connect and educate ourselves on eating disorders so we can know the signs and avoid the train wreck at the end of the line.
As a cross country and track runner, I like to view recovery as a distance race. I'm in it for the long haul. But there's a reason for that: There's hope at the finish line. There's freedom in Christ that I haven't yet grasped. (RELATED: A Freedom Filled 2015) There's greater friendships and fun and running and travel and all that good stuff. Yup. It'll take a while to get there but it gets better and easier every day. So I keep on trekking.
Love,
Hannah
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NEDA Awareness Week Post #1 HERE
It is a process of recovery that can sometimes feel like a marathon...but in Christ there is freedom. You are brave, Hannah. Keep pressing on!!
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